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(PICK-YOUR-CHOICE) !
TRACY EINNY / GOLD CHAIN NECKLACES/ GLOSSY LEGGINGS/HIGH WAISTED SHORTS/ PINK STRAPS HEELS
NEGO & TRADES OKAY, TAKE YOUR PICK!
( Plz Buy. You Wun Regret )
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| 9-TEEN |
[17 Nov 2009|04:36pm] |
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I am nineteen today and i am thankful for the peepos around me because birthdays are only made beautiful by people who remembered. So fm my family who specially brought me a cake to bitches who never fails to be there for every birthday of mine and of course djade and the gigs, i love you all so much! i love the scarpbook alot alot and e wonderful plan you all had and e effort you all put in trying to get e surprise done, thank you so much! and those who wished me esp those who texted me on e dot, really appearciated it. i esp like my pretty presents fm az, jo, the perfume fm e guys and scrapbook fm cbds and they are all pink in clr! ;)
And special loves to phua & bb , bff! <3
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| And Once it strikes 12, i made a prayer |
[14 Nov 2009|12:36am] |
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....that tomorow will be a better day for me and for everyone else!esp phua phua!
Not completely sure if it's only me or what, but nothing seems to be on my side. I had typed a long angsty post about someone nasty and mean and all of that was completely uneccessary but i kept it private after thinking through it. And now that msging aint even allowed in class, i am so going to fall asleep damn soon.
And then i had such a bad day on Thursday. I dropped my handphone in my pee the second time in my life, first being at ecp years ago and now it had to be in the stinky flithy toilet of SB, and my jeans button was off when i rushed home in a hurry, that was minutes before my presentation and i stammer and stumble thruout the presentation. Self consolation: Reasons to get a new phone right away.
Then, I dont know why i am so bloody nervous , maybe partly cos it's a debate and maybe cos i dont know the audience. So i feel quite naked being out of my comfort zone (my classmates!) Feel so stupid and upset i cannot help but think about it the entire day. Self consolation: I tried very hard to bring up my pts during rebuttal and hope it helps!
I told myself the next presentation which happens to be on e next day, i better not stammer and act like an idiot. I think i did okay but i was told i shouldnt be the first or last speaker but guess what it just so happens to be me. FML. hope that didnt affect the group, i was too loud too fast too agressive, but urgh i have to agree lah, i cannot help but to speak at my own speed and pace cos i tried stopping and being slower but i end up forgetting my pts and i get so anxious and nervous i start to fumble. Only when i am comfortable with my own speed am i able to process my thoughts. Self consolation: it is only a teeny weeny 10% and considering e fact that we did put in alot of effort for that 10% i should stop being hard on myself. Plus we had to work with someone over-domineering and demanding always making empty promises just being a bitch as usual. But guess what, I am NOT going to be in contact with her anymore and that calls for a BIG celebration!
SO
TGIF,
Cos I am dying to see CBDS cos i just have so much to whine to them, i cannot wait for tomorow to quickly come,! It must be this long week of shit that makes it all e more for me to want to see them right away. Cannot wait to party away and stop thinking about any school-related issues for once.
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| You ask me to breathe easy when im deep down under water |
[05 Nov 2009|09:24pm] |
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I think i am damn poor at stress / time management .
I am dying trying to find some solid points for Pyschology debate. Peers are more important that parents during the process of development, it seems almost like at topic that could be given in O levels right? But trust me, this is worse than that. With the amount of extensive research we are expected to do with experiments scientific backgrounds, satistics and theories by other psychologists , it is nothing close to simple. Can imagine myself furiously trying to rebute when i am thrown a question, and worse, i am suppose to be first speaker. damn.
And Sponsorship marketing.
Theres presentation on cover letters too, quite stupid a topic but that means easy except the exciting interactive demostration part we must come up with and the 1hr 30 mins duration.
Er and maybe do my tiny part by reading up on Law- vehicle pollution bill.
Now now now i need to just focus and finish them off by Saturday, possible?
And i dont know if im dumb or what, i took up flea on sat. But i really wanted to join since long ago and am really excited except that it's kinda diff to get things going but nevermind about that i will just go and experience our first time.
I missed 1 tutorials, late 3 tutorials in total. super frustrating.
Mum: What time does your school starts tmr?
Me: Yay very late, 12. grins widely ;D
Mum: Still, you confirm will pretend and oversleep then ponteh like tuesday one lah.
Me: -.-...
Mum knows me best. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Anyway, come find us at Homeclub Flea on SAT , 1pm-9pm okays!
;D
xoxo
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| Double standards? |
[24 Oct 2009|01:01am] |
First week of school has gone by peacefully, thankfully. I was late twice. Missed one tutorials. Not a fantastic start for the upcoming weeks but i shall forgive myself because i am sick. i hate losing my voice and hate how i cannot breathe properly without having to clear my nose every other seconds as well as how my head is spinning.
I wna get tons of new clothes, i dont know where have my clothes gone to despite a bursting wardrobe! my friends keep laughing at me for wearing pjs to school but i am not!!! that's top + shorts + chipped nails + flip flops + poorly drawn liner + messy hair = pjs.;(
But what to do when my lessons are at eight and i have to board the train at seven yet i only wakes up at seven thirty. helpppppppppppp.
I think i am stressing myself up. The projects should be still quite sometime away from me but i am already worrying about it. Esp now without a library how to print notes do research and project discussion? Damn frustrating. SP is weird. And i hate all the uni prep talk it does nothing but just making me feel worser than ever.
I need to start loving myself hard all over again before anyone will love me.
I dont wan to sleep but my sister and boyf is watching horror movies with disgusting disturbing screams and sound effects and so i had to plugged my ipod ! I feel bad for disturbing too but i need to use my laptop and it's in e living room.
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| and so my first day of school begins like this... |
[19 Oct 2009|06:37pm] |
And so i had a fever last night , e result of tons of fried food! My last fever was years and years ago so I almost forgot how terrible it felt until ytd.
i swear i almost died, my head was splitting as if all walls of my brains are being smashed repeatedly , it helps when i sit up but e moment i lie on my back it acts up again and so i sat up in the toilet almost the whole night until 3am as i felt like puking and shitting too. i never felt so miserable beforeeeee cause all i remembered was pulling my hair in bid to stop the pain and trying to distract myself from the pain.thank godness the only 2 pathetic panadols i dug from e fridge not even sure if it had expired worked like wonder!!!! cause it;'s such a miracle i could even make it to school fine and on time today despite the insufficient sleep.
and the first day of school was plain boring.
but something made my day, i hope it stays true, and so i will have a fab sem ahead (;
p/s: pictures of my gfs birthday suprise soon!
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| Sheer Mockery |
[16 Oct 2009|11:12pm] |
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Now tell me how do i let someone know very subtly that i had enough of them? So much so i could no longer hold on to it because it will just erupt what i had tried to surpass within me for so long. Maybe someone out there would like to said e same thing to me and to be honest if the person is my closest friend i know i will be very very upset but truth is i am stil going to change myself if i am clearly at fault, because it takes more than one to keep a f/s going and i treasure whatever that i have right now so i will listen.
You know how sometimes i wonder why would close friends choose to keep it within themselves whenever they are unhappy with one another. Why wont they just thrash things out and make lifes easier for everyone? But now i know, i finally understood what is holding them back. It is always easier said than done. The complications of human's emotions is something not to be belittled. Any wrong choice of word or tone would result in so much unhappiness and i am very certain that it will not be so easily mended. The awkwardness is somthing i really dont know how to patch. And so maybe that is the great difference about girls and boys. I am so sure that if the same thing happens to boys, they wil just fight it off or simply let it off their chest adding some knn,nb, cb along the way to spice things up and then the next day they will still go for soccer or beer tgt... because that is how males works! But clearly the same thing will not happen to girls because we are just more sensitive. No matter which party you are, either way, everyone is going to get implicated and then tadah, nothng will stay e same anymore. So we chose to ignore that and avoid doing anything that will risk the harmony of the frienship within a group esp.
Haha but again i dont think i am such a sane person to keep it calm and walk off. There were so many times that i had shown my anger my displeasure and what i really think but then it is another story whether you catch it anot...
And because the closest you are to someone, the harder it is to let them know they are in the wrong. I am not sure if it applies to everyone but it seems to applies to my friends and I. It is like they are so used to behaving that way suddenly you are telling them that "hey you are wrong you are making me upset because blah blah blah" and then they start to take it in the wrong way or maybe i rub them in the wrong way idk, but somethow then it will cause unhappiness. And so everytime i said that it cause unhappiness. so i learn the smart way. i kept myself quiet and walk away despite knowing that you are absolutely getting on my nerves. And then they will never know they are doing something wrong.
You know why is the most irksome thing? That is- despite writing this whole chunk of rubbish, nothing is going to change...
No, at least i think i felt better
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| LAST does of party-arty insane!! JUMP JUMP JUMP |
[15 Oct 2009|06:51pm] |
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can you spot the lashes? hahahahahahah....
ANWS, So ytd was our last party before school starts which i really really dread, like totally lost e momentum. we haven been studying for so long woah more than half a year. so we are back to reports projects presentation! really just e mention of e word is enough to bring down e atmosphere and mood so nevermind leave that to Monday!!!!
Now i just cannnnot wait for Saturday to come and i could meet CBDS and have fun. im sure it will be a blast with the overnight and pj party.hee hee.
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| 4th event! |
[03 Oct 2009|02:15am] |
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Elaine,
You'll be saying 'I can't believe I am getting paid to do this!' today. You will have an opportunity to work on a project you normally consider play or pure enjoyment. Throw yourself into it. There is more like it coming, but you'll have to bring in a rowdy group of support staff.
yes yes hahah i am like totally enjoying myself the past three days happily geting paid to do work and still had fun, so rarely.And i am playing cupid , so fun! like so long since i last did that trying to match ppl. ;D
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| oh lessons 101 |
[21 Sep 2009|03:20am] |
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- When someone mocks you, it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, do not judge them by how they look or act, instead base it on the contents of what is in their hearts.
- When someone ridicules you, it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.
Took this off a random blog i came across...
So i went back office to help out by calling all the hotels in singapore to invite them to our event, all including hotels in geylang, haha quite ridiculous but since im taking their pay im being diligent! Looking forward to the end of event where i can rest and i dont think i will look for anymore work, so draining! And need to stop making empty promises, driving myself and everyone up the wall cause everything is jam packed. damnszx. And hate how people jump to conclusions without finding the truth and how they always deny you of the explaination cause they are too quick to judge, and nowdays i just cant be bothered to explain myself anyway.
This weekend was bumming around, i think I would avoid such crowds for awhile cos i really didnt like the shoving of people,elbowing,rude brats, starings and argh smelly sweat and pits all over. OHH and I bumped into some really unexpected friends but i ended up appearing very hostile all because i really dont know how to react, haha got such a shocked!
FUND ME FOR BKK, ANYONE?! I AM NOWHERE NEAR MY HALF MARK. AHHHHHHHH WILL $$ PLS DROP FROM THE SKY??? ;(((
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[12 Sep 2009|01:14am] |
What i am obsessed with nowwwww:
JIYONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <333333
2NE1!
SO DIG THEIR STYLE. THEIR SUPER COLOURFUL FULL OF PRINTS LEGGINGS,HIGH CUT SNEAKERS, SEXY KILLER HEELS,STUDDED VESTS AND JACKETS, BLINGSSS, LEGOS NECKLACES, RINGS,BROOM HAIR, BANGS.
ALL SO CHIOOOOOOO ;( AND THEIR FLAT TUMMY. OMG. DAMN PRETTY, HOW COULD ANYONE RESIST? GO GO GO AND LISTEN
I DONT CARE, FIRE, PRETTY BOY!
BIG BANG!
i am stuck on my computer 24/7 watching mvs after mvs, reality show one after another.
That is apart from sending mass msgs out trying to get something in place, so annoying, why wont peple just quickly make up their mind? dont get it, i just am different, i hate lengthy and naggy msgs asking about e whole world and never getting to the main issue. damnxz. and why wont people reply my msgs? if not because i had to sound nice, i am gg to be really mean. I feel bad for not doing any work that whys i am, i am not trying to gain credit or trying to prove anything, i jus am doing cos i thought i should. ahh whatever.
Yayness to back to event with the fellow interns. Yayness to new job with the same kaki lays. Yayness to having not eating any carbo for dinner for two days. Yayness to doing squats for the 3rd day. Yayness to getting new lenses.
and now i need to do crunches. a
BYES!
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Sometimes I wonder if people ever feel the way about me as i feel about them and i meant it both in e good and bad way. Like maybe that person whom i hated for being irritating thinks i am annoying too? Or the person whom i thought is pretty nice actually is pretending to be nice to me! Okay that sounds abit complicated or maybe not but anyhow. So if i could ever have a wish, i want to be able to read people's mind. Then i could save myself from so much guessing and things will be so much simpler.
I'm super duper sorry to djade for psing the other day. You know how sometimes you just really do not feel like going out all of a sudden. I know i know i am very iritating for doing it at the last minute but i promise it will be the last time. Cause i know i have to be high in order to enjoy and i really dont want to stone and be all sulky and grumpy. So instead of lying that i have something on i decided to be honest. I will go and plan our next meet up soon okay.Please dont get angry with me! Still love you all the sameee ;)
But yesterday BBQ with the interns and colleagues was wayy fun. I like the fellow interns and tanny bernice kelvin huiwen. I mean apart from them making us e cards and e presents which was really very sweet, i really like them as an individuals. I like how they are not selfish to want to help out during bbq with preparation cooking cleaning up etc and of course many more!
Since im on this topic, did i mention about a friend i think i lost for good and i am not entirely very upset but just find it abit of a lost. because i just do not know why but he is acting so strangely and tbh i find him very childish and immature and so i have no intention to ask him the reason as well since i thnk we could be better off without each other too. I think i know e reason cause it is not like it happen w/o any rthyme or reason but i think if we do not see eye to eye with each other there is no point on forcing it too. Maybe one day when we meet we will be good again but for the time being i think all is peaceful when we do not meet. He will never change too unless his gf leaves him for good because he can see the problem with himself and since both of them are happily in love i shall not say anything too. And i did try my best to accomodate like entertained him and be amused and just keep quiet despite feeling offended cause somehow i find that we should try and sustained it, but heck that, i decided to give up trying to be nice, makes me so tired and irritated only. Period.
Have been seeing so much of Sinyee, Lays , Kong but i am not complaining! I like how we wil never get sick of our endless topics which only revolves around one single issue and how we can always get to that topic! i think by the time we are old and single we wil still be harping on the same issue. It so rare that we get holidays and it's so long, such a pity we wont get to go BKK, i thnk we are not gg anymore at this rate but nevermind, save them all for our graduation trip!
I am going swimming tmr! Yes doing something about it nowww
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| okay okay need to calm down |
[05 Sep 2009|02:51am] |
TODAY, I STEPPED ON THE WEIGHING MACHINE AND I GAVE MYSELF A SHOCK. I AM SO EMBARRASED. I WEIGH A TON. WITH THAT I AM DETERMINED. REALLY. THIS TIME. IF I DONT DO ANYTHING I AM HITTING 70.FUCK. I AM AT MY FATTEST IN MY ENTIRE 18 GOING 19 YEARS OF LIFE AND I DONT KNOW HOW I COULD STILL ACT AS IF NOTHING IS WRONG AND NOT DOING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
I USED TO GET SCARED ABOUT BEING FAT BUT SUDD ALL OF A SUDDEN I THINK I GAVE UP. I GAVE UP TRYING TO DIET I GAVE UP EXERCISING I GAVE UP EVEN TRYING TO ACT LIKE I CARE BY GG TO THE GYM AND START TO RUN ONCE IN A BLUE MOON. I CANNOT RMB E LAST TIME I RAN OR SWAM BECAUSE ALL I RMB IS GIVING UP HALF WAY. I USED TO BE ANNOYED WHEN MY FRIENDS COMMENTED I LOOK CHUBBY/FAT ,BUT NOW I AM SO USED TO IT I JUST GIVE A SHEEPISH SMILE SAYING I WILL DO SMTH AND THEN I TOTALLY FORGET ABOUT IT. DAMN THAT SHAKER FRIES YTD. SRSLY I DONT THINK I EAT ALOT COMPARED TO THOSE AROUND ME BUT LIFE IS SO UNFAIR I AM GG TO BURN THOSE STUBBORN DISGUSTING FATS NOW. NOW NOW.
NEVERMIND SOMEONE WILL BE MY MOTIVATION, TO THINK HE IS ACTUALLY LIGHTER THAN ME BY A GOOD 10 KG. I AM GOING TO LOOK LIKE HIS AUNTIE MOTHER EVEN IF I SEE HIM WHICH I ALWAYS PRAYED TO I WILL NOT DARE TO GO UP AND SAY HI.
THIS IS SO PATHETIC.
I AM GOING TO TAKE UP SWIMMING, TO DO SO , I NEED PRETTAYE SWIMMING COSTUME. YES YES OVERWEIGHT. I AM OVERWEIGHT. NO MORE LIES OF LOOKING FIT/HEALTHY I AM NOT. I AM JUST FAT PLAIN FAT AND FLABBY AND FUGLY.
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAVE I DONE, SINCE WHEN HAVE I BECAME SO FAT, HOW ON EARTH DID I MANAGE TO GAIN SO MUCH WEIGHT WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY?
OMG OMG OMG.
FUCK FUCK FUCK.
P/S: LAYS I LIED. TALK TO ME ONLINE NOW QUICK QUICK.
I AM STARTING MY DIET NOW. DONT RUIN IT IF YOU LOVE ME. HAHA EMO SHIT. BUT I MEAN DONT TEMPT ME OKAY. NO SUPPER NO FAST FOOD.
AND STOP TELLING ME I LOOK OKAY BECAUSE I DONT. YOU MAY CALL ME FAT AND UGLY IF YOU WISH I PROMISE I WONT GET ANGRY.
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" Let them go cause if they never return, they were never meant to be yours"
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| oh, and it slipped through my fingers |
[28 Aug 2009|01:13am] |
( Practically enjoying my life,yo )And just Today, Kong,Sy and I crashed Ruby's house at Opera for the first time and we made fab chocz! then it was updating on Ruby's life since she is almost akin to being away from us for close to 2 mths ever since her curfew started. So now to meet up with Ruby our only choice is to go straight to her house which is all the way in Opera, bedok! Tomorrow's dinner with Ah sam and co since it is her last day at work, at last! I am so damn happy for her realllllyyyy. As well as partying given e excuse that Phua has finished her exams. Looking forward to crashing BB's hostel and meeting up with BP too.Then, it is chalet with the collagues ( of course im only referring to the nice ones) Woot, now it seems like my life is not exactly exciting but not as boring as i thought too ;)
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| the whole episode it's good in a sucky manner |
[18 Aug 2009|01:05am] |
Sometimes you just have go through shit in order to learn to grow, learn it the hard way.
well well well that being said, i think i stretched myself to the maximum, be it my tolerance level or emotion quotient or being smart in a sneaky way and the ultimate- the threshold for shit happenings. Really, no joke, kidding you not. those who have heard me complained umpteen times will know how sucky it can get, or actually maybe just that of mine and sam's life in there. i always joke that our fate are intertwined because what has happened to her earlier is exactly being played on me and both of us are being picked on by a Witch. Calling her a witch is already being very benelovent of me.Bitch is more appropriate but after calling her that for 5 mths i am getting quite sick of it already. Anyhow, to summarise, for all things she had done to me:
( exasperation served in a platter )
Enjoying my life now bumping around doing nothing. No, I celebrated on my last day by partying the night away with D'Jade ,woke up at 6pm and heading to Gan;s bdae steamboat e following day. Today was meeting kong for shopping of cheap thrills. damn satisfied and happy esp with shaker fries extra salt and pepper concluding e night ;)
picutresss soon fb hanging!
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[08 Aug 2009|03:17am] |
- do up cards for selected colleagues during wkends!
- meet up with ah sam for lunch, fu&co for dinner on Saturday
- IKEA for mirrors and photoframes
- clear up warbrobe and start my search for missing items such as my navy blue dress, lace top and alot more ;(
- Party with D'jade next Friday ****
- chalet plans with colleagues tbc
- diet and exercise plans
so for my off day, i slept till 4pm and woke up only when mummy decided to check out my breathing cos apparently she said she's afraid im dead, like ha ha ha so not funny! not like it's my first time sleeping in like a pig anyway, i can actually sleep a tad longer but decide to wake up otherwise im gg to have trouble later. That explains why im awake at such unearthly hour of 3 am.
and had a simple day out with min and phua for cheap ice cream waffle and pedi and gotten myself a fab. HK organiser , that makes up a beautiful Friday for me (:
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"Those who are too smart to engage in politics are punished by being governed by those who are dumber"
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| Singapore International Jewellery Show 2009 |
[03 Aug 2009|06:42pm] |
hahahah okay now im wondering , i think ppl who google SIJS would come across my blog post, would they? but heck that. 7 more days to freedom ;)
4 days of sweat pain and aches and of panic and loads more of labour work brings me and other colleagues even closer. the TP interns just ended their sip/itp and i am extremely jealous. but i am leaving like in less than 2 weekss' time as well.
i am so proven wrong of when i initially imagined that organisers of big events are glamarous when people would come up to you to thank you for your hard work. ha ha ha. more like come up to you to ask for biscuits and tea and coffee and cups and catch cockroaches and complain about lights and okay endless of feedbacks.
but it feels very good when you have nice and apperciative exhibitors who thank you and your company for e hard work, at least they sees it and apperciates. i like jap ;) and maybe e higher up you are, the bigger picture you see, but that also means you skip e details you missed e best things.
more stories when pictures are up with fashion shows and all.
now i need to go and rest more before i start work again tomorrow!!
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p/s: sorry to d'jade/dee, clair, too dead beat to join/ fetch you either but promise meet up asap okay?
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| OF SILLY FRIENDS |
[28 Jul 2009|11:33am] |
Elaine:
i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen i dont wan listen
Ruby:
@$@!$@$@$#$@$@!%%~%@#$%!%!#
all the other vulgarities.....
epic:
huh, got this thing can repeat is it?
i assume she's asking about the "i dont wan listen"
HAHAHAHAHAH WHAT THE HELL.
MY FRIEND MAKES MY TOES LAUGH
;D
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